How Many of You- Are Lonely? Slit Wrists? Hoping You "accidentally" Overdose? Any Experiences?

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I know I think about this everyday even though I'm getting help. Just wondering who else out there is hurting. I've nearly ended it on ambien. Worst drug ever invented so easily addicted and so easy to get messed up on.
asked Mar 21, 2011 by anonymous
agree. life is unbearable. think about it every day. i am on meds for depression and anxiety but  but life is so messed up they dont really help for the feelings and longing to die.
I am very close to ending my life, despite loving Jesus and of course believing in God. I hurt so much and hate me wishing I'd just never been born. My husband of 4 years (been together since fall 2011) is very abusive emotionally, physically, and mentally. We have only two doors on our mobile home the front and back door... he has ripped and/or broken all the other doors to the 2 bathrooms, 3 closets, 3 bedrooms... broken at least 8 laptops, broken 4 of my iPhones I worked very hard to save for and buy, now I only have a Safelink phone... given me numerous black eyes, given me a very serious facial fracture in 5 places permanently damaging nerves to me front teeth and caused permanent hearing loss in my left ear, given me at least 3 slipped spine disks, ripped out so much of my hair that I look like I am balding. He calls me every name in the book in front our beautiful angels, two boys age 3 and 4. I  am trying to get away, but haven't any money... keep trying for jobs, but he won't give me money for the bus instead promising he'll give me a ride and then he won't answer his phone on purpose when I remind him I need to get there, even though I've already told him , reminded him more than 7 times what time, etc... We live on the southside of town so any interview is at least 3 miles. I believed in someone who I know is a sociopathic narcissist. We are never sexually intimate, he makes me get naked and will masturbate while looking at me, or want me to use the toilet for #1 and/or #2 which apparently gets him off. The rare occasion we have sex he goes for a minute or two and gets off of me afterward like it is a crime scene. I am so depressed that I don't know how to fix anything, the pain in my heart and soul is all consuming. I have no friends because that is how he wants it. No license, no money, and I am losing hope. My two little boys are my only wonderful reason to go on. I pray Jesus will help me live a life he intends me to live. I drink to numb myself from life, but I know that is not the answer. God help me and all the others that are in dire need of the Lord's divine help. Amen.

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hi there. Yeah i feel the same, and dont have anybody that understands or even tries to. And cant afford to get help anymore :( was starting to get beter. So spirraling out of control loney and just wana end it. Numb it all and forget.
answered Jun 15, 2012 by anonymous

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