what I have available. I am have Bipolar disorder II and Borderline Personality disorder, I knew a week ago I was in trouble and called my psychiatrist and he could not see me for a week, At time time I was not suicidal, but had erratic behavior. I felt abandoned- I have overwhelming stress in my like and do not have the physical or emotional strength to deal any more. I know it will be sad for my family, but with all I'm facing I believe they will understand, My only fear is that I do not have enough medications to be lethal and may need to add alcohol. I f I tell you what combination of drugs I have I bet you will not give me a straight answer, I do Not want yo end up on a vent in CCU like one other tine. I want to die now what my son is out for the evening.