I Am Definately Taking a Lethal Overdose Tonight, but I Need To Know Id I Kneed To Get Alohol On Board To Poteneiat

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what I have available.  I am have Bipolar disorder II and Borderline Personality disorder,  I knew a week ago I was in trouble and called my psychiatrist and he could not see me for a week, At time time I was not suicidal, but had erratic behavior.  I felt abandoned-  I have overwhelming  stress in my like and do not have the physical or emotional strength to deal any more.  I know it will be sad for my family, but with all I'm facing I believe they will understand,  My only fear is that I do not have enough medications to be lethal and may need to add alcohol.  I f I tell you what combination of drugs I have I bet you will not give me a straight answer,  I do Not want yo end up on a vent in CCU like one other tine.  I want to die now what my son is out for the evening.
asked Jan 12, 2013 by anonymous
retagged Jan 12, 2013 by administrator
Dear Anonymous,
I pray you are still alive and doing better.  I HAD to reply because I too UNDERSTAND the intensity of severe clinical depression and the burden it has on my family.  I have been under a psychiatrist's care since 2007 and this past year 2014 has been HELL.  Over the past 22 years, my husband emotionally abused me.  I had a professional career and was successful  but it all fell apart.  I have been in and out of mental hospitals for multiple  suicide attempts but was unsuccessful in my attempts.  However, once again, I feel I am a huge burden on my family and desperately want to "exit".  Life is not for the faint at heart and I no longer believe in justice.  I'm 49 years old and have no children.  I have extreme anxiety and spend days upon days alone.  ECT therapy did not help nor do any of the multitude of antidepressants I take.  I was just prescribed Seroquil (Quetiapine) to help me sleep, along with Xanax, Prozac & Wellbutrine.  My husband will NOT divorce me but is engaged!  He took every dollar we had and opened new bank account in his name only.  He tossed me away like a piece of trash.  I'm homeless yet own an ocean front home!  How pathetic and I blame myself for trusting my spouse.  As of late, it appears many people want to make an "exit".  I never thought life could get so bad...Nobody knows how we feel and nobody can help take away the suffering.

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No one beside you knows the pain you must be going through. As you are willing to share your story on this board, may I ask if you have already contacted someone at a suicide hotline?

If you are from the United States, do not hesitate to contact the suicide prevention line. At least give it a try.

No matter what problems you are dealing with, they want to help you find a reason to keep living. By calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) you’ll be connected to a skilled, trained counselor at a crisis center in your area, anytime 24/7.
answered Jan 12, 2013 by administrator Silver Guide (450 points)

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